I've just been browsing on dA, and it's surprising how many people I see that are depressed, masochistic, suicidal, or even just plain sad. I just want to tell everyone out there that life is worth living. I know you've probably heard that a million times, but I'm serious. I know that everyone's situation is different, but someone out there loves you. Always. I would cry if I ever found out that someone on dA had killed themselves, even if I didn't know them. Not that I'm saying I love random people cuz that's kinda stalkerish, but I am compassionate and I also take on others emotions easily. I'm rambling, I know, but this is the point:
If anyone, and I mean anyone, needs someone to talk to, I'm here. Always.
Seriously, I'm on this site pretty much all the time, cuz I have no life
Just please don't hurt yourself, when there are so many people in this world, even on dA who want to help. I know I've never been in your shoes, but that's not the point. Sure no one's pain is the same, but I believe that you can't rank people's hurt. It's individual to them. Now I'm not saying that a suicidal person and the death of a goldfish really can compare, but I hope you get my point.
Also, for those of you who make people want to kill themselves or who say that suicide is selfish, well I'm sorry but screw you. You obviously have no idea what that person is going through, and you're a buttface for making their life even worse. So there. And please don't blow up the comments section with rude comments in protest, because if you don't agree with me you have the choice to stop reading.
Suicide is not selfish. Making someone want to commit suicide just to make yourself feel better is, though.
Bullying is wrong. And to me, making someone want to kill themselves goes beyond bullying, now you've just lost your humanity.
I hope that all of you out there hurting from anything feel better soon And I know that sending a note to a random person seems weird, but I promise that I'll reply. Its not like my inbox is overflowing anyway, and even if it was, I never, NEVER, turn my back on someone. EVER. So please, if you come across this journal and you need someone to talk to, feel free to note me! Actually, even if you're not sad, feel free to note me! I'm not trying to be a creeper or anything, I just like talking to people, and I've always had a passion for helping others. Somehow I've always been the "class therapist." So, there's my resume I've never been bullied, I suppose. I've been teased severely on random occasions, but I don't really count that. I guess the reason I've never been bullied is because I don't let people get to me like that. And I've never been around someone that mean I guess?? I don't know. Anyway, I want to help people build up their resilience so that they can fight back when someone punches them to the ground. I want to help people know that they have a place in the world that no one else can fulfill, and no one can take from them without their consent. I want to help people become stronger, so that when someone does attempt to bully them, they can just look them in the eye and say, "I don't care," and mean it. And when someone drives them to the point of cutting or suicide, they can decide that there is a point in staying on this world, because even though there's dark, disgusting, horribly dark and scary places on the Earth, there are also patches of green, and it's up to you to spread those patches. Ok, it's like the girl in Fantasia 2000, y'know the green fairy girl? This one: vimeo.com/36277436
It' really inspiring if you've never seen it! Anyway, yeah, be a green fairy! I'm sorry, I'm getting really sidetracked here. Anyway, if you're still reading this, thank you for putting up with me! Please, know that you are not alone, and that someone, in fact I bet you several people, in this world love you and care about you. I'm not trying to give you that typical rant that adults give like "don't kill yourself cuz blah blah blah . . ." I'm just saying it because it's true. I promise.
So please, note me if you ever need or want to talk! My ears and eyes are always open. But if you don't remember anything else from this journal, remember this: You are not alone. You are never alone.
Worst case, you've got derpy me, right?
P.S. I know that the majority of this journal was about suicide and self harm, but seriously, if you are just sad and want to talk or want someone to vent over evil teachers with you, I'm here!